Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in The Cold Chicagoan's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, November 14th, 2001
2:06 am	The Optional Subject Time to post in my online journal again. It's kind of interesting, there are no links to this, so its just invisible old me. That's okay, I like the silence. Got a Physics test tomorrow. I don't understand college, its difficult, but not really. Choose an approach that works for you. If you let things come to you when you learn, and let things make sense in your mind, they will. Relax as you learn, let the information saturate your mind, slowly infiltrating the holes in your memory, leaving you whole. If this makes no sense at all, perhaps you're trying too hard. Aron (Comment on this)
Friday, June 8th, 2001
4:15 pm	Forgotten Language "Forgotten Language" from Where the Sidewalk Ends, by Shel Silverstein Once I spoke the language of the flowers, Once I understood each word the caterpillar said, Once I smiled in secret at the gossip of the starlings, And shared a conversation with the housefly in my bed. Once I heard and answered all the questions of the crickets, And joined the crying of each falling dying, flake of snow, Once I spoke the language of the flowers... How did it go? How did it go? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 5th, 2001
1:04 am	Self-Esteem Part II Ever noticed that a person's self-esteem can't be used to define a particular attribute of a person? Most people tend to be very confident in at least a few things that they do. It seems that most people in their day to day lives seem to be very confident in what they do. So why are some people immediately picked out as the ones with low self-esteem? What traits about them give them such a total lack of confidence in themselves that they can't interact properly with the world? Or is it some bogus creation of the media, these students of self and school destruction with no claim upon their lives... Anyway, although I got a couple interesting thoughts on my self-esteem journal, I believe that's all I care to share about it now. Starla dear, I'm afraid I can't reveal my identity for now, though maybe if you bugged Rio or Candace enough they might tell you... Boy I wish I had some real goals for the summer... right now they go something like (in order of descending priority) Fool around with one or more girls (not on that level you sick-minded people!) Get an A in Observational Astrophysics Show my dad my appreciation for him, spend some quality time with him Clean my room (which is still mostly in boxes) Develop astronomy connections in Hilo Trouble is, I have no deep desires or goals, no passions... I'm sure I could make one up But that's not very satisfying... The saddest part is I feel like my world has suddenly closed, I know that I want to live in Hilo and spend the rest of my life here... Is that why I'm feeling a void within me? Is it that I've accepted my fate and future, that there is no mystery or adventure left? I don't know what I want to do with my life. (This feeling will go away I'm sure when I hit college again) And Mike... I'm still not afraid of death, though if it'll make you feel better I'll help you fear yours for you. The Warm Hawaiian Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: The Song of Silence - Keaau Ag Lots (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 27th, 2001
11:10 pm	Journal Entry Number 2 (And Bearing Striking Resemblance to a "Number 2") Well, seeing as how I'm choosing to remain semi-anonymous for the moment, I'm having a hard time figuring out how to post to my journal and keep it public at the same time. Hmnnn... Well, lets see. I guess I can do a quick introspection on my self-confidence... Confidence is your inability to recognize your own failings... a Lack of Self Esteem is a direct result of over-criticizing your own failings... The so-called Proper Balance is when you are capable of criticizing yourself to a level which makes you happy, (and no matter what you do, you won't be able to please everyone else in the world) It seems to me that everyone likes a person with low self esteem to hang out with, or at least to have around. I mean, how gratifying is it to sit around and not have to worry about your own problems because someone else thinks even lower of them self than you do of your own self. Of course, someone who is really cocky, on the other hand, will drive most people nuts. No one likes someone who continuously thinks they can show them up on EVERYTHING (whether they can or not is another point), and I think since most people tend to identify better with people with low self esteem, arrogance really drives them nuts... I could probably write a book about self-esteem, its probably something I've analyzed more than anything else, (with the possible exception of my own penis, which I find highly entertaining) In fact, lets just call this posting self-esteem introspection 1 of many, and I will update my thoughts on it more as time progresses... Peace Out (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:05 pm	My First Journal Entry (Similar in Nature to My First Potty, yet Unlike It in so many ways) Hello World (2 Comments |Comment on this)